subconscious?

last night into early this morning, i had a terrible nightmare. my mom and i were driving on the turnpike and our car was hijacked. it was so real and i woke up extremely scared. a friend of mine interpreted it as feeling like someone/something is taking over my life..

my anxiety skyrocketed today when thinking of all the things i have to do by thursday. my gram & gramps are leaving for florida and i am housesitting for them until april. i havent even started moving things. my ocd (or ocd tendencies) are freaking out. i like this a certain way and i wont be able to do that in someone elses house. hell, my clothes are organized from darkest to lightest and also type of clothing. my medicine bottles are put in a line from smallest to tallest bottle. those are just to name two out of many. the same friend who interpreted my dream said that all of this is ed talking..

so is ed creeping back into my subconscious when i am trying so hard in recovery? maybe so. maybe not. either way, it has me really nervous. i am trying to have a positive attitude and talk the talk/walk the walk. i want recovery more than anything and i plan on getting there one day and be able to say i am RECOVERED. ed clearly does not want to leave evidenced by this dream and anxiousness....so ed STOP AND GO AWAY. please please please...