fine. we all know what that means. fucked up. insecure. neurotic. and emotional. the typical renfrew acronym. even my mom knows what that means if i say i am just "fine". haha gotta love the frew for educating rents.
as you can tell, my posts are getting rather negative. i am going through a lot right now. i have had several triggers that have set me back i.e. anniversaries, trauma, memories of old friends and relationships, etc. and it has exacerbated my ed so much more than id like. when i first began this bloggie i wanted it to be positive and about RECOVERY. in turn, it has turned into an outlet for my anger, frustration, sadness, and sometimes for my eating disorder to talk. which is not right.
so for now i think i am going to take a break from posting. at least until i can get myself back into a healthy way of living and thinking. because the LAST thing i would want is to trigger any of your beautiful lovelies. do know i am still here. i will continue reading your posts, as they are always inspirational. keep fighting.
it comes in waves.
there's a lull, then another wave hits you. i just wanted you to know it's okay not
to be fine sometimes.
there's a lull, then another wave hits you. i just wanted you to know it's okay not
to be fine sometimes.
-grey's anatomy♥
i just want you to know it's perfectly okay to let your anger, sadness, frustration and negative feelings out. recovery is never what you think it will be. it's okay when your feelings change. if it helps you to write them down then you should keep doing so. don't worry about other people, this is your blog. your place to be open. <3 i loveee you
ReplyDeletethank you, doll. i love you til forever. and you know that.<3
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