"there is little wonder why the thought of recovery seems inhospitable and depressing. The reality of gaining inches, permanently, feels like the most despicable undoing of all the good work I put in to making myself small and petite. If I recovered, there would be no special attention and interest in my skinny frame – I would be average, nay ‘normal’; people would assume I ate a typical diet where self-control didn’t preside over my waking moments.
I know I need to get better, and want to at that – but the induction needs to be much slower than I had first imagined, in order to mitigate the fear of gaining weight."
mehhh.
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